I Wanna Feel Your Bones....

The Killers - Bones
Ok, so i am obsessed with Brandon Flowers! He's hot and he is singing about touching my bones!! What more can a girl ask for on Halloween Eve!

I am not going to expend too much energy tonight. I spent today running and playing on the internet! Yep, it's what i do every day! Please note the irony in my words. All of my readers will pick up on it. Except for perhaps 1 or 2 of you. If you don't know what the word irony even means, here let me help you!

Irony is a literary or rhetorical device, in which there is an incongruity or discordance between what one says or does, and what one means or what is generally understood.

My goodness, do you get it? Here, let me go further...

Sarcasm - Understatement, mocking overstatement, or heavy-handed irony (stating the flat opposite of the truth) where both parties are aware of the difference between what's said and what's actually happening.

That one right there is irony for dummies! You get my point though.

Moving on....
I read an amazing post today by my friend Anthony over at raw model. I swear, this guy always writes the things that i am thinking.

Here's a story from The Power of Now that Anthony shared here: we like it raw. And no, we like it raw is most definitely not a porn site.

The Beggar and His Treasure

A beggar had been sitting by the side of the road for thirty years. One day a stranger walked by.

"Spare some change?" mumbled the beggar.

"I have nothing to give you," said the stranger. Then he asked: "What's that you're sitting on?"

"Nothing," replied the beggar. "Just an old box. I've been sitting on it for as long as I can remember.

"Ever look inside?," asked the stranger.

"No," said the beggar. "What's the point, there's nothing in there."

"Have a look inside," insisted the stranger. The beggar, reluctantly, managed to pry open the lid. With astonishment, disbelief, and elation, he saw that the box was filled with gold.

I am that stranger who has nothing to give you and who is telling you to look inside. Not inside any box, as in the parable, but somewhere even closer: inside yourself.

Look inside folks. Please. Everybody here has so much potential for good and growth and love. It's all inside just waiting to burst forth. If you do not look, you will not find.

I fell today while running. It happened in a split second as these things often do. I was distracted. My knee took the brunt of it. It is still painful now after a lot of icing. Guess i had a bit of two left feet syndrome huh?





















So, tomorrow is the day. The day. Halloween 2008. I am all about the pumpkin this year. I am talking pumpkin icecream, pumpkin bread and amazing pumpkin butter that i picked up in Soho yesterday. Man that stuff is so good, so intoxicating with all the different autumn spices in it. It's great stuff. Pick some up and slather it on your bagel. Almost, but not quite better than sex!

So, i was wondering what everybody will be for this Halloween? Or do you even dress up at all?

Most importantly, be safe. Check all candy before giving it to the kids. Hey, i hate to be that way, i hate to sound cynical but this is the world we live in.

Be slow in choosing a friend, but slower in changing him.
Scottish Proverb

Fall seven times and stand up eight.
Japenese Proverb

You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life.
Winston Churchill

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SO WHAT???? SO WHAT???? SO WHAT????

Pink - So What
So so what?
I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't need you
And guess what
I'm having more fun
And now that we're done
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright, I'm just fine
And you're a tool
So so what?
I am a rockstar
I got my rock moves
And i don't want you tonight

So what? Lately, mostly today this has been my mantra! My days turn into So What? Or fuck that! Or fuck off!! Pink really says it best, i think with this song.

I sit here watching Obama's political message. His girls are beautiful. He is a great daddy. "I am my brother's keeper" he says. I say Sweet!! This man really is the change we need to see. I feel frightened a little bit realizing that in exactly 1 week we will have a new president. Should i say So What??? Nah, for this i say SWEET!!

Let's hope for the best folks.

What i will say So What to, is the indifference and utter viciousness that i had to contend with last weekend. It was so uncalled for and shameful. What up yo? It's as though a different personality came to light. The real one perhaps? I will never know. And to this, i say SO WHAT??? FUCK OFF!!!

My blog is just that. I will write and use whatever words i see fit. Thats right. And i urge you, my amazing friends to, be real. Be who you are! Never ever let someone tell you to change, because "you have to"....no siree!! Oh yeah, change is good, but only if you want to change. Only if YOU feel you need to. Otherwise, be who you are!! ALWAYS!! I will love you just the same. I will never judge you or act in a malicious way.

I say actions speak way louder than mere words. Do you agree?? Perhaps, you do but if you don't SO WHAT???

I learned things this week. Too much to talk about. Just know it is making me a much better person. The incredible amount of support i receive here always amazes me. I laugh when i read your comments. And in a way they comfort me.

Now don't get me wrong. I am not a person who holds deep inside a grudge against the whole of humanity. But, hear this...you fucking talk about my family, you better know i will never lend you a penny. You find your own penny and leave me alone.

OK, rant totally and completely over. Never to be mentioned here again. I have given it way to much of my precious time and even more precious energy. Yeah, all i do is run and play on the internet!!! WOOOHOOOO!!!

Now another video:

LL COOL J - I'm Bad

Not much more to say, now is there! Oh yeah, there is!!

So What!! Do not get all in my shit!!! NEVER!!! It ain't cool!


















Everyone is a moon, and has a dark side which he never shows to anybody!!
Mark Twain

I would rather sit on a pumpkin and have it all to myself than be crowded on a velvet cushion.
Henry Thoreau


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P.S. Gotta document this folks....

Philadelphia Phillies are the 2008 World Series Champs!!!  YO!!!

28 year drought is OVER!!!!

VOODOO and 6 Things

Godsmack - VOODOO!!!
I'm not the one who's so far away
When I feel the snake bite enter my veins.
Never did I wanna be here again,
And I don't remember why I came.

Candles raise my desire,
Why I'm so far away.
No more meaning to my life,
No more reason to stay.

Freezing, feeling,
Breathe in, breathe in...
I'm coming back again...

Guess what folks? It is MEME time!! This is a MEME sent to me by thatblueyak or as i like to call him Dr. Z. The following are the instructions followed by my MEME.

The purpose is to share 6 non-important things/habits/quirks about your self.

1. Link to the person that tagged you
2. Post the rules on your blog
3. Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself
4. Tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs
5. Let each random person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website.
6. Let your tagged peops know once your entry is UP.

Now mind you 6 non-important things about ones self is kind of hard if your an ego maniac that thinks the world revolves around you and you are perfect. That said, i had a hard time doing this!!!

1) When i am running all alone and have my ipod blasting in my ear, i sing. Out loud. Loud!! I think nobody hears me, but then i hear the dogs howling and i see other runners screaming and holding their ears wondering where that "noise" is coming from!

2) I am not able to do subtraction problems on paper. Seriously, i think i never learned how to subtract. Perhaps, i was absent for that lesson in school? Without my calculator i am lost. My check book is never right because i cannot subtract. What do you do, carry the one or something??

3) I am often weak when it comes to resisting something sweet to put in my mouth. Could be anything really. A chocolate dipped pen...ooops i mean pretzel. You know, perhaps a banana dipped in sprinkles then coated with brown sugar and white sugar, then double dipped in dark chocolate and white chocolate too. Then that banana coated with a second banana and milk chocolate. Makes sense doesn't it?

4) I am a sucker for fashion. I like to look put together and cool. Well, i am cool at all times but i need to feel the coolness in what i am wearing. Sometimes i try to walk cool. Like a cool swagger with the hips. Maybe a little boob action sway. You can never be too cool in my book!

5) I like to sleep naked.

6) I LOVE LOVE LOVE HALLOWEEN!!! This is my favorite time of year and favorite holiday!! Everything is orange. ORANGE folks. Just today, i wore an orange long sleeved shirt to run my 5 miles. Fucking cool!!

Now, i have decided to TAG everybody!! I really think you should all do this MEME! It's fun. I was struggling with what to write because there is just not too many non-important things about me. Everything about me is important. But, more importantly today i need to make a very important decision.

It has been keeping me up at night. What color?? Yeah, what color shall i have on my nails today? Orange? Blue? I am soooo confused!

I want to thank you all so much for your amazing birthday wishes yesterday. There is an amazing camaraderie that is happening here. I love you guys and you know who you are so i don't have to list names. One bit of interest: I share my birthday with boxer shorts. They turned 93 years old yesterday! Yep, how cool is that?

So, voodoo! I love me some voodoo, spirits, black magic, white magic, witchcraft, warlocks, zombies, even some gray magic. HAHA!!! So, what? It's all good in a creepy sort of way! It's fucking Halloween folks.
















One need not be a chamber to be haunted;
One need not be a house;
The brain has corridors surpassing
Material place.
~Emily Dickinson

'Tis now the very witching time of night, When churchyards yawn and hell itself breathes out
Contagion to this world.
- - -William Shakespeare

Halloween is the one night a year when girls can dress like a total slut and no other girls can say anything about it.
Lindsay Lohan, Mean Girls

Eye of newt, and toe of frog, Wool of bat, and tongue of dog, Adder's fork, and blind-worm's
sting, Lizard's leg, and owlet's wing, For a charm of powerful trouble, Like a hell-broth
boil and bubble.
- - -William Shakespeare (a quote from "Macbeth")

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OCTOBER 27, 2008

Today, is my birthday. There was a celebration last night. It involved family and copious amounts of italian food. I ate and enjoyed shrimp fra diavolo. Big salad too. Then for dessert i choose pumpkin icecream. Damn that was good.

I appreciate my family for celebrating with me.

For my birthday, i decided to sleep in. The actual nights sleep was interrupted at 4am. Not sure why i couldn't fall back to sleep after that. A lot on my mind i suppose.

So, Happy Birthday to ME!!!

Yeah, i'm so full of myself aren't I?

The secret of staying young is to live honestly, eat slowly, and lie about your age.
~Lucille Ball

Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.

Today, be aware of how you are spending your 1,440 beautiful moments, and spend them wisely.
– Source Unknown












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The Unbearable Lightness Of Being Indifferent

Pearl Jam - Indifference

Today, i am indifferent. It means that i couldn't care less one way or another about what you think, feel, or say. When i say you, i mean a select few. It's as though you do not exist. It's as though you are an enigma in the night. A puzzle if you will. Totally, unexplainable to most others.

I do not care. You can keep coming back. I do not care. You can read and laugh. Or not. Get it all out of your system, my sad little friend. There will be no response or validation to your constant irritating and ridiculous claims. Not one response. I laugh at you. I mock you. You are so very mockable.

Now, i must go and concentrate on real life.

















Peace out my homies!


The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.
The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference.
The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference.
And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.

Countdown to Halloween - 5 days

Your In It Right Now....Aren't You??

Inspired by my buddies over at b.e.earl and slydesblog who by the way, tackled the "horror" genre of movies quite amazingly. So, amazing in fact that i am frightened to click on their blogs for fear of encountering a monster of some sort lurking about. Kudos to both of you guys for a job well done!

So, after thinking a little bit, i thought the only logical thing for me to do was to tackle the equally difficult genre of "chick flicks". Now there is really no way i could list all of them nor do i want to because what is a chick flick to one chick may not be to the next chick. Are you with me so far??

So, first let me clarify what a chick flick really is and i suppose wikipedia is as good a place as any for the definition.

Chick flick (also "chick's flick") is slang for a film designed to appeal to a female target audience. Although many types of films may be directed toward the female gender, "chick flick" is typically used only in reference to films that are heavy with emotion or contain themes that are relationship-based (though not necessarily romantic and may not involve men).

So, that said i am going to list my top 5 "feel good" "chick flicks". A film designed to appeal to "me" that when i click the stop button, i say to myself "I feel good"

5) Sleepless in Seattle - 1993
Meg Ryan and Nora Ephron team up again, this time with Tom Hanks in the male lead. Essentially a reworking of An Affair to Remember, Meg plays a journalist from Baltimore (Annie) who is engaged to the mild mannered Walter (Bill Pullman again!). Annie hears a widower called Sam on the radio, becomes obsessed with him and with a lot of help from the Sam’s eight year old son, Jonah, travels to Seattle to find him. What happens next is one of the most sweet chick flick endings ever.

4) When Harry Met Sally - 1989
Written by Nora Ephron and directed by Rob Reiner, it’s full of clever dialogue, and will they won’t they plot teasers. And who can forget Meg Ryan’s fake orgasm, which made Katz’s Deli in Manhattan famous? As the lady said, ‘I’m having what she’s having!’

3) Pretty Woman - 1990
A guilty pleasure if ever there was one! Despite its rather rose-tinted view of the sex industry, it’s a classic Cinderella rags to riches tale. Richard Gere and Julia Roberts are perfectly cast, the Big and Carrie of their day. It won Roberts an Academy Award nomination for her sassy portray of Vivian Ward, the hooker with a heart.

2) Say Anything - 1989
Very few films have even tried to be as smart and honest as Say Anything. The film, which is more then 10 years old, still remains to be one of the strongest pieces of romantic cinema. Not only do John Cusack and Ione Skye have perfect chemistry; not only is John Mahoney's character one of the most complicated father figures in the history of film; not only is the screen play delightfully honest; but everything just seems to fit right in this movie. A true treasure!

1) Garden State - 2004 (Let me preface this by admitting, i am a huge Zach Braff fan!! HUGE!!)
Zach Braff has made it. Both script, directing and main acting, and everything is more than all right. This is a film without violence about people living ordinary extra-ordinary lives. The "hero" has been taking tranquilizers for all his grown up-life and even before that. He's got no feelings left, not even for the death of his mother. Then he meets a girl, well acted indeed by Natalie Portman, who unlocks him slowly, saying the right things all the time without knowing it. Hours after you've seen this, you realize that here was a crucial moment, this was a turning point and so on. The love story gets a little sentimental at the end, but still this is a film that lives long after you've seen it through.

Garden State may or may not fit into what you may consider a classic "chick flick" but still. It was a great movie IMHO! Great soundtrack too!!!







So, yeah good stuff huh? Makes me teary eyed. A little. Ok, a lot!

On a totally unrelated note:
I am finally being left ALONE!! For that i thank Buddah!! For that i thank Horned God and Triple Goddess! For that i thank Yin/Yang! You know guys, the only thing that is constant is our beating hearts!! We are all in this together!


The words of the Hopi Elders in Oraibi Arizona.

There is a river flowing now very fast.
It is so great and swift that there are those who will be afraid.
They will try to hold on to the shore.
They will feel that they are being torn apart and will suffer greatly.
Know that the river has its destination.
The elders say we must let go of the shore, push off into the middle of the river, keep your eyes open and our heads above the water.
And I say "See who is in there with you and celebrate!"
At this time in history we are to take nothing personally, least of all ourselves.
For the moment that we do, our spiritual growth and journey comes to a halt.
The time of the lone wolf is over.
Gather yourselves!
Banish the word "struggle" from your vocabulary.
All that we do now must be done in a sacred manner and in celebration.
WE ARE THE ONES
WE HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR.

Folks, lets all roll with the fucking changes! It's easier that way! Or as my amazing friend Dee says "fucking win". Yeah, its that simple.





















Countdown to Halloween - 7 days

Rule The World With Love....

The Shins - New Slang
And if you'd 'a took to me like
A gull takes to the wind.
Well, i'd 'a jumped from my tree
And i'd a danced like the kind of the eyesores
And the rest of our lives would 'a fared well.
The Shins is an American indie rock group comprising singer, songwriter and guitarist James Russell Mercer, keyboardist/guitarist/bassist Martin Crandall, bassist/guitarist Dave Hernandez, drummer Jesse Sandoval, and Eric Johnson of the Fruit Bats. Their sound draws on several musical genres, including pop, alternative rock, alternative country, and folk. The Shins are now based in Portland, Oregon. I love The Shins. Check them out here my space

Today, i feel free. I ran a sub 30 minute 5K! It took everything out of me to do it, but with a goal in my head, i wasn't backing down until the job was done. It's quite liberating actually. To be able to just run. Many people find running a bore. Yes, it sure can be. But, not to me.

It's freeing. Almost cathartic in its very nature. For me, it's emotionally beneficial and it needs to be done daily. Besides the socialization aspect of running, which is in and of itself is a big thing, it's so very.....gosh it's hard to articulate here.

It helps me focus on the bigger picture. Just today, as i approached the boardwalk the sun was rising. Almost as if by magic, the sky was becoming light and the sun was there to warm me. Don't worry, that is as corny as i will get with this post. I will admit, somedays i have trouble on the focusing part. There are distractions all over the place.

Cute boys running! YES!! Lots of them on the boardwalk and i cannot help but to look. There are identical twin bros that run together. It's rather endearing actually. They do not dress a like but they have the same gait and pace. Very adorable.

Yet, everything comes together at the end. Running is a sport, but to me it's so much more. The days i do not run are the days i feel sluggish. As a good friend of mine once said "running and music is my therapy". How true dude!! How true!

I don't necessarily love winter running, but you must adapt. Transition slowly into cold weather clothes. Then again, on those crisp winter mornings, with just a hint of cold wind, its as though the day was made for running. I highly recommend it.

I can go on and on about the virtues of running but i will stop here.

So, i mentioned at the start of this post that i feel free. It's sort of hard to explain but i feel as though a heavy weight has been lifted off of my body and thrown away for good. It feels amazing i might add.


















Simplicity! A pumpkin and green sneakers. Right now my green sneakers are among the 2 other pairs i own. Right now, that pumpkin is cooking in the oven, omitting quite amazing smells. That sucker was hard to cut into. Gave me a fight, but once i had her open, it was easy going. This is simply my very favorite time of the year. I've read numerous blogs on the subject of Autumn. It's special.

Yesterday, i was driving and i glanced over to my left. There stood a tree, very majestic and beautiful full of the colors of Fall. The leaves were swirling and falling from only that one tree!!! The trees to the left and right were perfectly still and the leaves stayed put. But, that big sucker of a tree in the middle gave me the most dazzling of shows possible. Nature at its best.

I am fully aware of how corny i must sound. I'm just feeling it, is all. You get a taste of something and you know its fleeting. So, you hold on for a while and enjoy the ride.

So, what do you guys do in Autumn. Now, my thoughts turn to Halloween. What is it about that Halloween that makes grown adults want to dress up and frolic and go to parades and parties?? What it is? I am a Halloween baby! Well almost.

I know what i am going to "dress" up as. Hopefully, it will all come together and i may delight you with a video.



















On a totally unrelated note, BOOTS!!!

We are disturbed not by events, but by the views which we take of them.
Epictetus'

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