Friday, October 31, 2008


Sexy Zombie Pin-up

Bones for dinner??

Wanna play Pac-Man with me? OR is it iPod time?

Wake up girlie....

Forgot to put your make-up on huh??

The Hippie Runner.... PEACE OUT!!

I will share my candy corn with you!!!

Don't eat too much though, or you may end up like this....


Thursday, October 30, 2008

I Wanna Feel Your Bones....

The Killers - Bones
Ok, so i am obsessed with Brandon Flowers! He's hot and he is singing about touching my bones!! What more can a girl ask for on Halloween Eve!

I am not going to expend too much energy tonight. I spent today running and playing on the internet! Yep, it's what i do every day! Please note the irony in my words. All of my readers will pick up on it. Except for perhaps 1 or 2 of you. If you don't know what the word irony even means, here let me help you!

Irony is a literary or rhetorical device, in which there is an incongruity or discordance between what one says or does, and what one means or what is generally understood.

My goodness, do you get it? Here, let me go further...

Sarcasm - Understatement, mocking overstatement, or heavy-handed irony (stating the flat opposite of the truth) where both parties are aware of the difference between what's said and what's actually happening.

That one right there is irony for dummies! You get my point though.

Moving on....
I read an amazing post today by my friend Anthony over at raw model. I swear, this guy always writes the things that i am thinking.

Here's a story from The Power of Now that Anthony shared here: we like it raw. And no, we like it raw is most definitely not a porn site.

The Beggar and His Treasure

A beggar had been sitting by the side of the road for thirty years. One day a stranger walked by.

"Spare some change?" mumbled the beggar.

"I have nothing to give you," said the stranger. Then he asked: "What's that you're sitting on?"

"Nothing," replied the beggar. "Just an old box. I've been sitting on it for as long as I can remember.

"Ever look inside?," asked the stranger.

"No," said the beggar. "What's the point, there's nothing in there."

"Have a look inside," insisted the stranger. The beggar, reluctantly, managed to pry open the lid. With astonishment, disbelief, and elation, he saw that the box was filled with gold.

I am that stranger who has nothing to give you and who is telling you to look inside. Not inside any box, as in the parable, but somewhere even closer: inside yourself.

Look inside folks. Please. Everybody here has so much potential for good and growth and love. It's all inside just waiting to burst forth. If you do not look, you will not find.

I fell today while running. It happened in a split second as these things often do. I was distracted. My knee took the brunt of it. It is still painful now after a lot of icing. Guess i had a bit of two left feet syndrome huh?

So, tomorrow is the day. The day. Halloween 2008. I am all about the pumpkin this year. I am talking pumpkin icecream, pumpkin bread and amazing pumpkin butter that i picked up in Soho yesterday. Man that stuff is so good, so intoxicating with all the different autumn spices in it. It's great stuff. Pick some up and slather it on your bagel. Almost, but not quite better than sex!

So, i was wondering what everybody will be for this Halloween? Or do you even dress up at all?

Most importantly, be safe. Check all candy before giving it to the kids. Hey, i hate to be that way, i hate to sound cynical but this is the world we live in.

Be slow in choosing a friend, but slower in changing him.
Scottish Proverb

Fall seven times and stand up eight.
Japenese Proverb

You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life.
Winston Churchill

Countdown to Halloween - 1 day

Wednesday, October 29, 2008


Pink - So What
So so what?
I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't need you
And guess what
I'm having more fun
And now that we're done
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright, I'm just fine
And you're a tool
So so what?
I am a rockstar
I got my rock moves
And i don't want you tonight

So what? Lately, mostly today this has been my mantra! My days turn into So What? Or fuck that! Or fuck off!! Pink really says it best, i think with this song.

I sit here watching Obama's political message. His girls are beautiful. He is a great daddy. "I am my brother's keeper" he says. I say Sweet!! This man really is the change we need to see. I feel frightened a little bit realizing that in exactly 1 week we will have a new president. Should i say So What??? Nah, for this i say SWEET!!

Let's hope for the best folks.

What i will say So What to, is the indifference and utter viciousness that i had to contend with last weekend. It was so uncalled for and shameful. What up yo? It's as though a different personality came to light. The real one perhaps? I will never know. And to this, i say SO WHAT??? FUCK OFF!!!

My blog is just that. I will write and use whatever words i see fit. Thats right. And i urge you, my amazing friends to, be real. Be who you are! Never ever let someone tell you to change, because "you have to" siree!! Oh yeah, change is good, but only if you want to change. Only if YOU feel you need to. Otherwise, be who you are!! ALWAYS!! I will love you just the same. I will never judge you or act in a malicious way.

I say actions speak way louder than mere words. Do you agree?? Perhaps, you do but if you don't SO WHAT???

I learned things this week. Too much to talk about. Just know it is making me a much better person. The incredible amount of support i receive here always amazes me. I laugh when i read your comments. And in a way they comfort me.

Now don't get me wrong. I am not a person who holds deep inside a grudge against the whole of humanity. But, hear fucking talk about my family, you better know i will never lend you a penny. You find your own penny and leave me alone.

OK, rant totally and completely over. Never to be mentioned here again. I have given it way to much of my precious time and even more precious energy. Yeah, all i do is run and play on the internet!!! WOOOHOOOO!!!

Now another video:

LL COOL J - I'm Bad

Not much more to say, now is there! Oh yeah, there is!!

So What!! Do not get all in my shit!!! NEVER!!! It ain't cool!

Everyone is a moon, and has a dark side which he never shows to anybody!!
Mark Twain

I would rather sit on a pumpkin and have it all to myself than be crowded on a velvet cushion.
Henry Thoreau

Countdown to Halloween - 2 days

P.S. Gotta document this folks....

Philadelphia Phillies are the 2008 World Series Champs!!!  YO!!!
28 year drought is OVER!!!!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

VOODOO and 6 Things

Godsmack - VOODOO!!!
I'm not the one who's so far away
When I feel the snake bite enter my veins.
Never did I wanna be here again,
And I don't remember why I came.

Candles raise my desire,
Why I'm so far away.
No more meaning to my life,
No more reason to stay.

Freezing, feeling,
Breathe in, breathe in...
I'm coming back again...

Guess what folks? It is MEME time!! This is a MEME sent to me by thatblueyak or as i like to call him Dr. Z. The following are the instructions followed by my MEME.

The purpose is to share 6 non-important things/habits/quirks about your self.

1. Link to the person that tagged you
2. Post the rules on your blog
3. Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself
4. Tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs
5. Let each random person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website.
6. Let your tagged peops know once your entry is UP.

Now mind you 6 non-important things about ones self is kind of hard if your an ego maniac that thinks the world revolves around you and you are perfect. That said, i had a hard time doing this!!!

1) When i am running all alone and have my ipod blasting in my ear, i sing. Out loud. Loud!! I think nobody hears me, but then i hear the dogs howling and i see other runners screaming and holding their ears wondering where that "noise" is coming from!

2) I am not able to do subtraction problems on paper. Seriously, i think i never learned how to subtract. Perhaps, i was absent for that lesson in school? Without my calculator i am lost. My check book is never right because i cannot subtract. What do you do, carry the one or something??

3) I am often weak when it comes to resisting something sweet to put in my mouth. Could be anything really. A chocolate dipped pen...ooops i mean pretzel. You know, perhaps a banana dipped in sprinkles then coated with brown sugar and white sugar, then double dipped in dark chocolate and white chocolate too. Then that banana coated with a second banana and milk chocolate. Makes sense doesn't it?

4) I am a sucker for fashion. I like to look put together and cool. Well, i am cool at all times but i need to feel the coolness in what i am wearing. Sometimes i try to walk cool. Like a cool swagger with the hips. Maybe a little boob action sway. You can never be too cool in my book!

5) I like to sleep naked.

6) I LOVE LOVE LOVE HALLOWEEN!!! This is my favorite time of year and favorite holiday!! Everything is orange. ORANGE folks. Just today, i wore an orange long sleeved shirt to run my 5 miles. Fucking cool!!

Now, i have decided to TAG everybody!! I really think you should all do this MEME! It's fun. I was struggling with what to write because there is just not too many non-important things about me. Everything about me is important. But, more importantly today i need to make a very important decision.

It has been keeping me up at night. What color?? Yeah, what color shall i have on my nails today? Orange? Blue? I am soooo confused!

I want to thank you all so much for your amazing birthday wishes yesterday. There is an amazing camaraderie that is happening here. I love you guys and you know who you are so i don't have to list names. One bit of interest: I share my birthday with boxer shorts. They turned 93 years old yesterday! Yep, how cool is that?

So, voodoo! I love me some voodoo, spirits, black magic, white magic, witchcraft, warlocks, zombies, even some gray magic. HAHA!!! So, what? It's all good in a creepy sort of way! It's fucking Halloween folks.

One need not be a chamber to be haunted;
One need not be a house;
The brain has corridors surpassing
Material place.
~Emily Dickinson

'Tis now the very witching time of night, When churchyards yawn and hell itself breathes out
Contagion to this world.
- - -William Shakespeare

Halloween is the one night a year when girls can dress like a total slut and no other girls can say anything about it.
Lindsay Lohan, Mean Girls

Eye of newt, and toe of frog, Wool of bat, and tongue of dog, Adder's fork, and blind-worm's
sting, Lizard's leg, and owlet's wing, For a charm of powerful trouble, Like a hell-broth
boil and bubble.
- - -William Shakespeare (a quote from "Macbeth")

Countdown to Halloween - 3 days

Monday, October 27, 2008

OCTOBER 27, 2008

Today, is my birthday. There was a celebration last night. It involved family and copious amounts of italian food. I ate and enjoyed shrimp fra diavolo. Big salad too. Then for dessert i choose pumpkin icecream. Damn that was good.

I appreciate my family for celebrating with me.

For my birthday, i decided to sleep in. The actual nights sleep was interrupted at 4am. Not sure why i couldn't fall back to sleep after that. A lot on my mind i suppose.

So, Happy Birthday to ME!!!

Yeah, i'm so full of myself aren't I?

The secret of staying young is to live honestly, eat slowly, and lie about your age.
~Lucille Ball

Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.

Today, be aware of how you are spending your 1,440 beautiful moments, and spend them wisely.
– Source Unknown

Countdown to Halloween - 4 days

Sunday, October 26, 2008

The Unbearable Lightness Of Being Indifferent

Pearl Jam - Indifference

Today, i am indifferent. It means that i couldn't care less one way or another about what you think, feel, or say. When i say you, i mean a select few. It's as though you do not exist. It's as though you are an enigma in the night. A puzzle if you will. Totally, unexplainable to most others.

I do not care. You can keep coming back. I do not care. You can read and laugh. Or not. Get it all out of your system, my sad little friend. There will be no response or validation to your constant irritating and ridiculous claims. Not one response. I laugh at you. I mock you. You are so very mockable.

Now, i must go and concentrate on real life.

Peace out my homies!

The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.
The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference.
The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference.
And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.

Countdown to Halloween - 5 days

Friday, October 24, 2008

Your In It Right Now....Aren't You??

Inspired by my buddies over at b.e.earl and slydesblog who by the way, tackled the "horror" genre of movies quite amazingly. So, amazing in fact that i am frightened to click on their blogs for fear of encountering a monster of some sort lurking about. Kudos to both of you guys for a job well done!

So, after thinking a little bit, i thought the only logical thing for me to do was to tackle the equally difficult genre of "chick flicks". Now there is really no way i could list all of them nor do i want to because what is a chick flick to one chick may not be to the next chick. Are you with me so far??

So, first let me clarify what a chick flick really is and i suppose wikipedia is as good a place as any for the definition.

Chick flick (also "chick's flick") is slang for a film designed to appeal to a female target audience. Although many types of films may be directed toward the female gender, "chick flick" is typically used only in reference to films that are heavy with emotion or contain themes that are relationship-based (though not necessarily romantic and may not involve men).

So, that said i am going to list my top 5 "feel good" "chick flicks". A film designed to appeal to "me" that when i click the stop button, i say to myself "I feel good"

5) Sleepless in Seattle - 1993
Meg Ryan and Nora Ephron team up again, this time with Tom Hanks in the male lead. Essentially a reworking of An Affair to Remember, Meg plays a journalist from Baltimore (Annie) who is engaged to the mild mannered Walter (Bill Pullman again!). Annie hears a widower called Sam on the radio, becomes obsessed with him and with a lot of help from the Sam’s eight year old son, Jonah, travels to Seattle to find him. What happens next is one of the most sweet chick flick endings ever.

4) When Harry Met Sally - 1989
Written by Nora Ephron and directed by Rob Reiner, it’s full of clever dialogue, and will they won’t they plot teasers. And who can forget Meg Ryan’s fake orgasm, which made Katz’s Deli in Manhattan famous? As the lady said, ‘I’m having what she’s having!’

3) Pretty Woman - 1990
A guilty pleasure if ever there was one! Despite its rather rose-tinted view of the sex industry, it’s a classic Cinderella rags to riches tale. Richard Gere and Julia Roberts are perfectly cast, the Big and Carrie of their day. It won Roberts an Academy Award nomination for her sassy portray of Vivian Ward, the hooker with a heart.

2) Say Anything - 1989
Very few films have even tried to be as smart and honest as Say Anything. The film, which is more then 10 years old, still remains to be one of the strongest pieces of romantic cinema. Not only do John Cusack and Ione Skye have perfect chemistry; not only is John Mahoney's character one of the most complicated father figures in the history of film; not only is the screen play delightfully honest; but everything just seems to fit right in this movie. A true treasure!

1) Garden State - 2004 (Let me preface this by admitting, i am a huge Zach Braff fan!! HUGE!!)
Zach Braff has made it. Both script, directing and main acting, and everything is more than all right. This is a film without violence about people living ordinary extra-ordinary lives. The "hero" has been taking tranquilizers for all his grown up-life and even before that. He's got no feelings left, not even for the death of his mother. Then he meets a girl, well acted indeed by Natalie Portman, who unlocks him slowly, saying the right things all the time without knowing it. Hours after you've seen this, you realize that here was a crucial moment, this was a turning point and so on. The love story gets a little sentimental at the end, but still this is a film that lives long after you've seen it through.

Garden State may or may not fit into what you may consider a classic "chick flick" but still. It was a great movie IMHO! Great soundtrack too!!!

So, yeah good stuff huh? Makes me teary eyed. A little. Ok, a lot!

On a totally unrelated note:
I am finally being left ALONE!! For that i thank Buddah!! For that i thank Horned God and Triple Goddess! For that i thank Yin/Yang! You know guys, the only thing that is constant is our beating hearts!! We are all in this together!

The words of the Hopi Elders in Oraibi Arizona.

There is a river flowing now very fast.
It is so great and swift that there are those who will be afraid.
They will try to hold on to the shore.
They will feel that they are being torn apart and will suffer greatly.
Know that the river has its destination.
The elders say we must let go of the shore, push off into the middle of the river, keep your eyes open and our heads above the water.
And I say "See who is in there with you and celebrate!"
At this time in history we are to take nothing personally, least of all ourselves.
For the moment that we do, our spiritual growth and journey comes to a halt.
The time of the lone wolf is over.
Gather yourselves!
Banish the word "struggle" from your vocabulary.
All that we do now must be done in a sacred manner and in celebration.

Folks, lets all roll with the fucking changes! It's easier that way! Or as my amazing friend Dee says "fucking win". Yeah, its that simple.

Countdown to Halloween - 7 days

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Rule The World With Love....

The Shins - New Slang
And if you'd 'a took to me like
A gull takes to the wind.
Well, i'd 'a jumped from my tree
And i'd a danced like the kind of the eyesores
And the rest of our lives would 'a fared well.
The Shins is an American indie rock group comprising singer, songwriter and guitarist James Russell Mercer, keyboardist/guitarist/bassist Martin Crandall, bassist/guitarist Dave Hernandez, drummer Jesse Sandoval, and Eric Johnson of the Fruit Bats. Their sound draws on several musical genres, including pop, alternative rock, alternative country, and folk. The Shins are now based in Portland, Oregon. I love The Shins. Check them out here my space

Today, i feel free. I ran a sub 30 minute 5K! It took everything out of me to do it, but with a goal in my head, i wasn't backing down until the job was done. It's quite liberating actually. To be able to just run. Many people find running a bore. Yes, it sure can be. But, not to me.

It's freeing. Almost cathartic in its very nature. For me, it's emotionally beneficial and it needs to be done daily. Besides the socialization aspect of running, which is in and of itself is a big thing, it's so very.....gosh it's hard to articulate here.

It helps me focus on the bigger picture. Just today, as i approached the boardwalk the sun was rising. Almost as if by magic, the sky was becoming light and the sun was there to warm me. Don't worry, that is as corny as i will get with this post. I will admit, somedays i have trouble on the focusing part. There are distractions all over the place.

Cute boys running! YES!! Lots of them on the boardwalk and i cannot help but to look. There are identical twin bros that run together. It's rather endearing actually. They do not dress a like but they have the same gait and pace. Very adorable.

Yet, everything comes together at the end. Running is a sport, but to me it's so much more. The days i do not run are the days i feel sluggish. As a good friend of mine once said "running and music is my therapy". How true dude!! How true!

I don't necessarily love winter running, but you must adapt. Transition slowly into cold weather clothes. Then again, on those crisp winter mornings, with just a hint of cold wind, its as though the day was made for running. I highly recommend it.

I can go on and on about the virtues of running but i will stop here.

So, i mentioned at the start of this post that i feel free. It's sort of hard to explain but i feel as though a heavy weight has been lifted off of my body and thrown away for good. It feels amazing i might add.

Simplicity! A pumpkin and green sneakers. Right now my green sneakers are among the 2 other pairs i own. Right now, that pumpkin is cooking in the oven, omitting quite amazing smells. That sucker was hard to cut into. Gave me a fight, but once i had her open, it was easy going. This is simply my very favorite time of the year. I've read numerous blogs on the subject of Autumn. It's special.

Yesterday, i was driving and i glanced over to my left. There stood a tree, very majestic and beautiful full of the colors of Fall. The leaves were swirling and falling from only that one tree!!! The trees to the left and right were perfectly still and the leaves stayed put. But, that big sucker of a tree in the middle gave me the most dazzling of shows possible. Nature at its best.

I am fully aware of how corny i must sound. I'm just feeling it, is all. You get a taste of something and you know its fleeting. So, you hold on for a while and enjoy the ride.

So, what do you guys do in Autumn. Now, my thoughts turn to Halloween. What is it about that Halloween that makes grown adults want to dress up and frolic and go to parades and parties?? What it is? I am a Halloween baby! Well almost.

I know what i am going to "dress" up as. Hopefully, it will all come together and i may delight you with a video.

On a totally unrelated note, BOOTS!!!

We are disturbed not by events, but by the views which we take of them.

Countdown to Halloween - 10 days

Saturday, October 18, 2008

I Am A Charm School Reject......

The Killers - Human
Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer
Are we human?
Or are we dancer?

The Killers are an American rock band from Las Vegas, Nevada. Formed in 2002, the group consists of Brandon Flowers (vocals, keyboards), Dave Keuning (guitar, vocals), Mark Stoermer (bass guitar, vocals) and Ronnie Vannucci Jr., (percussion, drums).
The Killers are one of my favorite bands. I highly urge you to check them out here my space. The band's most recent work is their third album, Day & Age, which has been produced by Stuart Price and is due to be released in late November 2008. Get it, it's good stuff.

I'm feeling really emo today and let me tell you why. You think you know people. You think you understand the ways of the world and everything that goes on in it. Well, at least thats what i thought. But, something happened today that threw that theory right out into the garbage. So, i was told, because of the use of vulgar language on MY blog, i do not possess what i think is the word, decency. WTF??? I have integrity, i am kind and i am accepting of everybody!

I do not care what religion you are, what color you are, what sex you are, what you look like...i do not care! What i do care about is your character. So check this out:

Moral character or character is an evaluation of a particular individual's moral qualities. The concept of character can imply a variety of attributes including the existence or lack of virtues such as integrity, courage, fortitude, honesty, and loyalty, or of good behaviors or habits. When someone is a moral character, it is primarily referring to the assemblage of qualities that distinguish one individual from another. Psychologist Lawrence Pervin defines moral character as "a disposition to behave expressing itself in consistent patterns of functioning across a range of situations"

This, my friends, describes each and every one of you. You have character. Moral or otherwise. You are funny and fun to be around. You do not censor my "words". I do not censor yours. It's that simple. It's also simple to not click on my blog if you get offended at something i wrote. It's certainly your prerogative and/or privilege to simply stay away. So, far though i have had no complaints...or have i?

I was censored. Not here, never here. But, someplace where i thought i was accepted. Now i know i am not. I was censored. Can you imagine that??? This is the US of A isn't it? Don't we have the right to say what we want?? Write what we want?? Or do we? I'm really confused about that right now. It's just really appalling how people judge others by what they write. It's also appalling to be requested to "change" because its the right thing to do.

Can someone explain that to me?? I am ignorant as to what that even means. I am flabbergasted. How can this be in the year 2008? I have friends from every single nationality. I love them all because of who they are. Good, decent, caring people. I would never tell anybody what words to use or not use. NOT EVER!!! Get that??? Hear that???

Hey, i'm a runner. Do you want to know what i think when i am having a particularly hard run...i think "FUCK I"M GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS RUN"....Yeah so? So what?? I just shared a private thought with you all. I wonder, are you all in shock now??? No not you, my readers. You get me. You know me. You don't like it, you leave. Simple.

You know in another 3 weeks we will have a new commander in chief. Do i shout out my political beliefs here. Sure, sometimes and nobody ever complained or told me to "change". I was and am respected here. I am respected IRL too. What is blogging???

To me, to blog is to keep an ongoing diary or commentary I take pride in my blog even if my blog is never read by anyone but me. My blog has become more than just a way to communicate, i consider myself a writer. Snicker if you must, but i am a writer gosh darn it.

Also, i am inspired by getting to read all of your incredible blogs. Utz potato chips and It's always sunny in Philadelphia and all kinds of shit i have discovered right here. Music and love and food and a sweet person from Poland. All here!! Integrity and love for a grandfather and the joys of pillow fights. Right here!!! Keeping an open mind! Here too!! I do not live in a cocoon, i live in the real world where shit happens. I have responsibilities. I have an ill mother to care for and i do! People here show me respect and love. You don't like my music, all the more power to you to tell me so, but never tell me not to listen to what i like OK???

Please, just don't OK!!! Not tonight!

So i want to leave you all with this! Hahaha! Ever flick through a dictionary looking for rude words? Sad!!. (Yeah, me too.) Well flick no more, for in the Age of the ’InterWeb Wiktionary has a special category just for you!

All together now: “Isn’t the Internet WONDERFUL!?”

Countdown to Halloween - 13 days

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Whore Etiquette

Keane - Spiralling
We're tumbling down
We're spiralling
Tied up to the ground
We're spiralling
When we fall in love
We're just falling
In love with ourselves
We're spiralling
I am keen on Keane!!! Keane are an English piano rock band, first established in Battle, East Sussex in 1995, and taking their current name in 1997. Keane are known for using a piano as their lead instrument instead of guitars, significantly differentiating them from most rock bands The inclusion of a distorted piano effect in 2006 and various synthesizers were a common feature in their music that back then combined the piano rock sound used during their first album and the alternative rock sound which developed during 2005. For their latest tracks, Keane have used new instrumentation such as banjo, violins, saxophone and, once again, acoustic guitar. Please check them out my space and for goodness sakes purchase their new CD called Perfect Symmetry!

So, i was thinking about something.

Asking a girl for a dance, her number or a date must be hard for a man. I first realized this after reading this Far Side cartoon a few years ago. And since then, I have become very sensitive to men’s emotions and feelings and have treated them with the utmost respect during this grueling and sometimes confusing process called the mating dance.

Now, this post was originally going to be titled Pulling the Trigger, a how-to guide for men on how and when to approach women. However, I decided on something much more simple "rules for women to assure positive experiences in the ‘pas de deux of love’

At times, the mating dance can resemble failed military operations. Men can’t figure out when, where and how force shall be used to proceed. There they are in front of us, fumbling, trying to say the words or ask the question, but they just can’t seem to ‘pull the trigger’. As women, it is our duty to help them out. If we’re interested, we show them they can advance - without consequence - through words and body language. We face-off, smile, engage in conversation, maintain eye contact, lightly touch their arm or leg in conversation, or give them our telephone number if they should ask for it.

If we are NOT interested, we let them know…nicely. There is no point in being mean or disrespectful. Not only is it bad form and unnecessary, it’s narcissistic. Always show respect.

It’s also not the time to lead men on or play games. Although it may give your ego a boost, move on or you’re surely pay for it later in life (or other women will). As Coco Chanel once said:

‘If a man talks bad about women, it usually means he was burned by one woman.’

Let’s all do our part and behave as evolved and adult women.

It is extremely important that you shut him down quickly and not give him ANY window of opportunity. There should be no doubt or confusion in your answer. ‘Sorry, I have a boyfriend. Thanks anyway!’ - works every time and in any situation. It should be said in a light and fluid cadence so you don’t offend him. But, whatever you do, if you’re in motion (like walking) keep moving. Being in constant motion shows him that you are serious. If you keep standing there in front of him, it creates doubt and confusion and he may think that’s his green light to proceed and press you to change your mind. If you’re sitting, like in a club, then politely turn away from him after ‘Thanks anyway!’

And speaking of clubs, if you DON’T want to be bothered then DON’T give him any energy: eye contact, smile, wave, conversation, face-off, etc. Or, worst yet, say you’re going to be back and not return - again, totally unnecessary.

Accepting a dance can be tricky. Be firm in letting him know you’re only interested in dancing with someone other than your girlfriend(s). ‘Just to let you know, I’m only interested in dancing’ - should do the trick. The onus is now on him.

Lastly, DO NOT give him your number if you do not plan on following through. Men know they will, from time to time, face rejection. Don’t think you’re being mean by turning him down. You’re not. You’re actually doing us women a favor by extinguishing the spite fire that builds up in men who encounter women who ‘play games on their phones’.

Men have feelings just like us so please…always show respect.

Lastly, i'd like to give you 9 REASONS NOT TO DATE A T. REX. 9 reasons

"I have learned that there is no failure in running, or in life, as long as you keep moving. It's not about speed and gold medals. It's about refusing to be stopped. You might find that one particular direction proves difficult, but there are many directions on a compass. Infinite, in fact. As long as you keep searching, you'll find your winning way." --Amby Burfoot, form enlightening book, " The Runner's Guide to the Meaning of Life."

Countdown to Halloween - 16 days

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Incurable Insomniac.....

"Dwelling on the negative simply contributes to its power."
Shirley MacLaine

There is something odd happening to me. I am becoming increasingly "over stimulated" I didn’t keep my plans today because even with the day off yesterday, I am still feeling very tired and overstimulated and overfed and oversocialized and generally saturated with sensory input of all kinds. It’s a great weekend, but it’s a lot to take in, and I think I need to stare into space for awhile. Or cry. Maybe I’ll do a puzzle from Crossword Puzzles to Soothe Your Soul.

I twitter, i facebook, i write in 2 blogs, i am currently writing reviews for 2 products i have been using. It's just getting to be too much for me. Definitely, fucking sensory overload. Two ipods are charging as i type and my garmin gps watch is as well.

I run. Way to much and everyday. I put it out there into the universe that i plan on picking a marathon to participate in next year around this time. Not sure if it will be NYC or some smaller more obscure race that can include a long touristy weekend. If i was 20 years younger i would choose two marathons to do in 2009. Sagging boobs and a semi sagging belly tell me otherwise.

It's not like i didn't have a great time yesterday. I did. I participated in the annual fall ritual of going apple/pumpkin picking out in the boondocks of New Jersey! It rocked. I was able to breathe fresh air while my nose was revolting and telling me there was some sort of allergen invading and tickling my nose hairs. That was odd.

This curious fellow kinda freaked me out at first. I wasn't and still am not sure what it is. I am guessing some sort of goat/sheep??? I don't do well with these sort of creatures. They want to be fed and will use any method to get their tongue on a piece of corn. I'm painfully aware of my city like demeanor and i am quite sure that curious fellow tuned into that and tried to tongue me. Nuff said.

The pumpkins were out in full force enabling me to pick four that i deemed appropriate for my Brooklyn apartment. I will in all likelihood attempt to prepare some sort of edible creation with at least one of the pumpkins i so carefully picked. The others are already designated as presents to some worthy recipients.

The apples were nice. Not great. Nice. Hard and crisp just like i like them. Again, some will be given away in an attempt to ensure the health of those i love. An apple a day you know??

From there, to mexican food. Good company, good food and a nice mexican beer called Negra Modelo certainly hit the spot after a day of picking and being licked. I don't drink much, in fact hardly ever but that beer really felt like a familiar friend after a day of work. You would think i would have had a calm mind. I didn't and still do not. Just gonna say this it had the smell of malts with a hint of coffee and coca.

It's starting to infuriate me, make me anxious and uncertain where my mind is going. Which brings me to the title of this post. Am i really someone who cannot be cured of the dreaded insomnia? Will this go on indefinitely? I'm not certain although it needs to be addressed. Sleep, rest, slumber, man what i wouldn't give for 3 hours of pure uninterrupted sleep. Just me and my blanky. Nothing more or less. Perhaps a cup of green tea and a cookie? Not sure really. I just know that i am beyond the point of slowing down. I'm working on it though so no worries here!

It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia

I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that IASIP is one of, if not THE funniest show on TV today. Cracks me up every single time without fail. For example, this past weeks episode was essentially about pooping in bed and trying to discover who's poop it is complete with actual poop shown. Brilliant!!!

Here is the brilliance behind the poop!!!

Need i say more? It's poop and i love it. Overstimulated huh? You bet i am!!!

I like this:
Wouldn’t it be great if people could get to live suddenly as often as they die suddenly?

-Katherine Hepburn

Thanks Gazelle!!!

Countdown to Halloween: 19 days

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

YOU can register to vote while your pooping!!!!

Do you care about everything???

You know you have to register to vote right??


Monday, October 6, 2008

Can i call you Joe??

It's funny, so sue me!!! I really need to just laugh today, it would be rather cool if you could laugh along with me!!!

So, its not Friday?? WTF?? I know, lets do is the questionnaire that James Lipton asks at the end of Inside the Actors Studio on Bravo! Wanna play??

What is your favorite word? jubilant
What is your least favorite word? racist
What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally? writing and change
What turns you off creatively, spiritually or emotionally? people who are not open to writing and change
What sound or noise do you love? I love the sound of the ocean waves lapping up on the shore
What sound or noise do you hate? I hate the sound of someone unable to breathe
What is your favorite curse word? FUCK
What profession other than your own would you like to attempt? Artist
What profession would you not like to do? Grave digger
If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates? Fuck you, please go we have no room for you!!!!

I'm curious my fellow friends, how would you answer this fun questionnaire, which by the way was taken from the Proust Questionnaire about one's personality. Or something like that. So, lets have some fun and see what everybody comes up with!! Come on guys, some answers would Rock my world right now!!!

I feel strange, oh thats right, i am strange
Raw Cool

Sunday, October 5, 2008

The Perfect Fit.....

Dresden Dolls - The Perfect Fit
i could make a dress
a robe fit for a prince
i could clothe a continent
but i can't sew a stitch

i can paint my face
and stand very very still
its not very practical
but it still pays the bills

The Dresden Dolls are an American musical duo from Boston, Massachusetts. Formed in 2001, the group consists of Amanda Palmer (vocals, piano, harmonica, ukelele) and Brian Viglione (drums, percussion, guitar, vocals). The two describe their style as "Brechtian punk cabaret", a phrase invented by Palmer because she was "terrified" that the press would invent a name that "would involve the word gothic." The Dresden Dolls are part of an underground dark cabaret movement that started gaining momentum in the early 1990s. Check out the Dresden Dolls here my space

I am a maverick of sorts. An independent thinker, non-conformist - rebel. This is who i am, who i strive to be. I go against the grain. I don't run in the same direction. I always look for and listen to new music. I try new and different foods. I am not adverse to trying new and different positions. I like to meet new friends and people who are different and interesting. I love talking and having interesting conversations.

Life has to be this way for me. The same old routines bore me. Sure, there are things i do on a regular basis, but mostly i stray. I live life as it is supposed to be lived. Intense and of great zeal, energy, determination, and concentration.

Do u control ur mind or does ur mind control u? Best way to figure it out. If u control it, u should be able to turn it off whenever u want. What if this life were just a dream? Would you choose to stay asleep and enjoy a beautiful dream. Or would you choose to wake up to reality? Funny part about chasing after things is that when you stop trying so hard and let go of trying to control, things start to chase you. So much to think about and take in.

I'm beginning to see my attraction to physical appearances lessen and the attraction to the consciousness in others greaten. Why are we attracted to things or people? Because we believe the someTHING or someONE posses something we don't already have. Be that beauty, a cool personality or just someone we can relate to. Nothing is good or bad in this world, just our own thinking that makes it so.

I kind of get this way with the approaching holidays. I sense a change in the air and in the minds of the people i know. Myself included. This is the time of year when people descend into deep depressions and upsets. They are alone and lonely watching it all unfold as they stroll the streets of NYC alone. They want to be a part of it all, yet they just watch from the sidelines. Some may try to embrace it, meander up to it and soak it in. Others just delve into the dark night of pity and self loathing.

I have promised myself that no matter how alone i feel i will never be lonely. I will make sure that i make things happen for myself. I control everything in my mind. This is a time of renewal and love and hope. If you think bad thoughts or allow yourself to feel badly, no doubt you will feel badly. The biggest advantage about taking full responsibility for your emotions is that it gives YOU the power to do something about it.

It's all power!! I' not saying you should not let yourself feel things, emotions, love, sure feel it, embrace it and make it your own. Do you desire something right now? Desire to me is a sense of longing for a person or object. The same sense is expressed by emotions such as "craving" . When a person desires something or someone, their sense of longing is excited by the enjoyment or the thought of the item or person, and they want to take actions to obtain their goal. I desire a lot, mostly things or goals i set for myself. When i obtain these desires i grow. I focus on it and realize there are feelings/sensations happening constantly. Your mind must interpret these sensations as either good or bad.

Is it a good thing to run 10 miles and pull a muscle? Is it a good thing to eat a piece of cooked dead food? Well, sure its quite amazing to run 10 miles (good thing) then you pull a muscle (bad thing) Eating a piece of meat may taste good (at first) then you realize how horrible it is for your health (bad) So there is always good and bad in every desire we have.

I must admit something here...i am a freaking moody woman!! I can go from feeling jubilant euphoria one moment to feeling as though i want to kick somebody in the face and make them bleed the next! From feeling a classic runners high to wanting to dig a hole and nestle down into it for the winter. All these feelings and moods happen real fast. Perhaps i am in the throes of bipolar mania? I suppose i shall have to discuss this with my beloved therapist Liz Lemon!!

Again, i worry where this blog is going. Am i doing the right thing and honoring my blog with my words? I need to feed Raw Cool amazing thoughts and feelings so she will want to continue on. Here's the way i see it:

At a funeral you have seen a dead body. You think to yourself "That definitely is their body, but thats not who they were. What was them, is now missing" Same thing here. I definitely do not want to look at this blog and see a dead blog. I see the blog but its not what it once was. I want this blog to be who i am, but so much more!!! I am working on it all in my mind. It's forming and almost ready to volcanically erupt.

My next post will be so much more, and possibly less. It takes time to cultivate and make it feel just right.

“Listen to people’s stories, and you’ll find that they could all be entitled “Why I Cannot Be at Peace Now”. The ego doesn’t know that your only opportunity for being at peace is now.”
Eckhart Tolle

I must keep moving!!!

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Business as usual...

The Walkmen - In the New Year
I know that it's true
It's gonna be a good year
Out of the darkness
And into the fire
I'll tell you I love you
And my hearts in the strangest place
That's how it started
And that's how it ends

The Walkmen are an indie rock band from New York City. Check them out here my space. You may want to listen to "We've been had" as well.

I have about 2000 thoughts in my under used and abused brain of mine. I say under used because i know i am capable of so much more than what i am thinking right now.

I am posting this in a caffeine induced frenzy. My heart is pounding and my brain is twirling in delight. Laughing at me, i think. Poking fun at the fact that i think i am smart. That i think i am capable of intelligent conversations. I believe i am and can. Or do? Or should? Or will someday!

I am slowly becoming a bit manic. I've been told by quite a few people that i am talking increasingly more and more. Too much they say. Sometimes, i talk and get no answer. Most times i talk to myself. WTF?

Here is what i really do not like about myself and need to work on:
I don't do well dealing the technical support of any kind. I feel that most, if not all, technical support people have absolutely no fucking clue about the product they are technically supporting. This irks me. Believe me, if i did not have to call tech support, i wouldn't but sometimes you just need a bit of help right?? These people, and i use that term lightly, really have no idea what it feels like to wait 30 minutes, on hold just to hear "i need to transfer you to software" this will take about 30 minutes, do you have the time?" Fuck yeah, i love being on hold just to talk to an idiot!!!!

Rant over!

So, October 2, 2008 i believe will go down in history as the best night of television in a very long time. The Biden/Palin debate. This is exciting folks. To me, anyway. In my own demented way, i want to see Palin go down. I want to see her cry like a baby. There are people in foreign countries interested in the American Presidential election of 2008. I really do not know which way the election will go, nor do i really want to discuss all that, but let's just say i am frightened.

Now, inspired by Anthony over at raw model.

Ich werde meinem weg finden...

I am really excited by this: gift economy, i gifted some people a while back and it made me feel amazing. I felt as though i brightened somebody's day and if i made just one other fellow human feel happy, it was so worth it.

I took 6 days off from my favorite morning pursuit. Running. Calf pain. Right leg. I am in need of new running kicks. It's not even a question now, its a necessity. I will slowly kill my legs if i don't wear new kicks soon. My birthday is this month and so i know without a doubt that my sister will be buying me running kicks. It was a subtle suggestion on my part. You know, that subliminal message she hears every time she talks to me. I'm all like "yo sista, i need running kicks, like NOW"...She's all like "what the fuck are running kicks, sista?"....then i'm all like, "yo sista, just get me a size 7 please and make sure it's a color i love"....after thinking a few seconds, the light bulb in her brain appears to have been turned on and she says "make sure they are under $100". We'll see.

APPLE PICKING!!! YO!!! I AM!! POSSIBLY THIS WEEKEND!!! Remember, Halloween is coming. I know what/who i am going to dress up as. Do you???

Stretching herself too thin, She breaks her connection
Staying too busy, She has no time
Doing for others, She neglects herself
Defining herself only through others, She loses her own definition
The wise women waters her own garden first!