What Would NPH Do???? Post #203

This is pure fucking genius. Please view this and look for the tear at the end. Priceless!!! NPH is an amazing man. I love him. Anybody watch him on How i Met Your Mother??? Again, priceless!

This post is a bull shit post. It's just a nothing post really.

Wanted to let you all know that i did indeed get one run in. The day i said i would, i did. But, i had to run on the beach due to icy conditions up on the boards. Which was fine. It just made for a harder, slower run. I ran for 40 minutes. SLOW! I did get to see the sunrise. It was nice. I guess. I was deep in conversation with my friend so i kinda didn't notice until the sun was high in the sky. I know, so not like me. I had just the slightest twinge of pain in my left thigh. Other than that it was smooth sailing. As i was finishing my run, i glanced down to the shore's edge and i saw a man. Naked i thought. So, i did what any normal female runner would do. I stopped, squinted and stared. I then noticed, and folks i wear glasses so perhaps i was seeing things, he was wearing some sort of flesh colored bathing suit. That is all i saw for in the next instance, he had jumped into the ocean and started swimming. It was 22 degrees and windy. I shivered just looking at him and continued on my run.

Today. Not so good. I could not seem to arise. It was as if my very comfy blanket had me hostage. It just wouldn't let me go. The more it pulled in down, the less i fought. Then i had tons of stuff to do and i thought i could get my run in before nightfall. Ummm, nope.

So, tomorrow it is. But, it will be around 15 degrees. Then Thursday there will be snow on the ground. Then Friday it will be 10 degrees. Fuck that. I am running. I am superwoman for goodness sakes.

January 19th is just around the corner. That date is my 1 year blogaversary. So? What to do?? I have no idea. I am not very creative these days. I'm have been doing quite a bit of flicking. FLICK, FLICK!!!

No, you stay. I am not flicking you away. Come back and read my lame ass posts. Or not!!!

American Idol is starting it's 8th season tonight. Yikes! I have decided not be a viewer. Just not my thang!!! Or thing! But, enjoy to those of you viewing. Biggest Loser. Not me. Not you either. It's also on tonight. I may view this just to see what all the hoopla is.


The Flys - Got you where i want you
Hey what's the point of this
Hey what's your favorite song
Maybe we could hum along

My song of the day sent to me by my friend. He likes to send me music, you see because we both like the same shit. He also tries to find songs that i DO NOT have on my iPod. This was one of them....I love it and it is now safely on my iPod in heavy rotation....

It's As If The Caffeine Is Still Coursing Through My Body.....Post #202

I am well aware that i am late for my Sunday word of the day. I agonized over what word to use today. So, here goes:
Metagrobolized - totally perplexed and mixed up


Yeah, i am. Totally perplexed. Totally. But, it doesn't really matter. I just do the flick. FLICK, FLICK!!! I love that don't you??

So, today was my 7th day of no running. 7 fucking days. This is why i feel the jolt of the beautiful caffeine that i ingested today. I usually feel the jolt of the beautiful endorphins coursing through my body and it almost feels as though i am on the verge of an orgasm. Yeah, i said it. So, i had to do something. I had to get that feeling. Starbucks seems to give me that feeling. Not as intense, but hey they have free WiFi!!!

Perhaps, i should quickly tell you the reason i have not run in a week is because my thighs hurt. Enough to stop running for 7 fucking days!!! Ok, on with it!!!

Still, running is much much better. There is really no way to describe it. So, here is my plan. Tomorrow AM. I will attempt 2-3 miles. If, in any of the time i am in a running motion, i feel pain, i stop. That's it. My plan. Wish me luck please. I feel nervous.















I am contemplating my plan. I am a bit metagrobolized. I feel the pressure of the caffeine calling to me. But, here is what i came up with:

What this awareness, this deepening, this quietness, this place of
being reflective and connecting more with source or with spirit, out
of there comes great wisdom and great understanding and great ability
to act and be who we potentially are, our highest potential.

We as individuals and we as a collectivity can really take on our
lives and take on the challenges of our world in a way that's
personal, that's compassionate, that's with deep understanding, deep
caring, non polarized, and in away that can really make a difference."

No, i didn't make that up, you thought i did, didn't you!!?? See, i metagrobolized you all!!! HA!!!

Honesty??? What is That??? Post #201

Cake - Sheep go to Heaven
I'm not feeling alright today,
I'm not feeling that great,
I'm not catching on fire today,
Love has started to fade,

I'm not going to smile today,
I'm not gonna laugh,
You're out living it up today,
I've got dues to pay,

No idea, i just like it is all!!!















My first ever award and my #201 post!!! Pretty fucking cool!

I was given the Honest Scrap award by the amazingly gorgeous Simplicity over at chasingwentworthmiller Me? LIttle old me? An honesty award!!


So the rules to accepting my award are as follows: A) first list 10 honest things about yourself - and make it interesting, even if you have to dig deep! B) pass the award on to 7 bloggers that you feel embody the spirit of the Honest Scrap.

So, please join me on the magical mystery tour i like to call 10 honest things about raw cool. That would be me!!!

1) Even though it doesn't seem possible i am a pretty shy chica. Well let me preface that by saying i was much MORE shy as a child and teenager. I am way less shy now but still. Here is what my mind goes through when trying to have a meaningful conversation.

My mind - Yikes there's ------! Perhaps i should look down and pretend i didn't see him? Perhaps, i should try to ask him a question. Perhaps, i smell?? Should i say anything? Should i offer him money? Should i give him my first born????

Real life -
Me - Oh, hmm, hi what up dude?? Hmm, oh the weather? Yeah where ya been? How you? Yikes i will shut up now!!

So, perhaps when i say shy i really mean not knowing what the fuck to say EVER!!!!

2) I am a member of a dating service that i never used. WTF? Yes, i wasted precious money on this endeavor. Oh i did peruse the site a few times only to find that whenever i clicked on "my matches" i saw the exact same 20 men that i saw 2 months ago. Nothing changed and the men i saw 2 months ago looked infinitely worse today. Their profiles sucked, their photos were non existent and i hated myself even more.

3) Running - WOOHOO! I bet you all were waiting for me to mention this. Then see how i would tie it in to an honestly list. Well, you know how i say how much i love running. There are days when i fucking hate it. So much, Yet i drag my ass out there to get it done. And i see the sunrise and i still hate it. And i hear the ocean's lapping onto the shore and i still hate it. And i see other runners with smiles on their faces and i hate it even more. And then i finish my five miles and somehow then and only then, i love running again! I also always have to wear running outfits that match and look cool. My running friend wears running clothes that she's had for the past 20 years. I look at her and think WTF??? Only the latest and greatest for me!!! Cause i love running so much!! Only when i don't hate it!!!

4) I do not know how to be a friend. I always think i do and i always think i am doing the right things. But apparently i am not doing anything right. Or apparently my definition of friendship is vastly differently than the definitions of the friends i think are my friend. Make sense?? I know not really. Let's just say i've learned my lessons and i am good at flicking the fleas off!

5) I think and analyze things way too much. Like all the time. I do not know why i can't just let things roll off my shoulders and down to the floor. I do not know why i keep everything inside and mostly to myself. I take what people say too seriously. If someone says to me "Hey i will do this at this time and call you at this time" Well i take them at their word. And guess what? It never happens that way. Sure, shit happens and time goes by. You get busy. I get that. Just don't say things you can't or won't full fill like EVER!!!!

6) I have been in therapy for a while now. And i don't care who knows it. Her name is Liz Lemon. Hence, What would Liz Lemon do or WWLLD for short? It's this thing i do. When i am having a problem or situation that i cannot handle on my own i stop and thing WWLLD?? Not that she is perfect or anything. Far from it and she will be the first to admit that, but she tends to do exactly the opposite of what i do in sticky situations. She stops and thinks and doesn't do anything more. I, may stop and think but then i may do something stupid. But, i am learning. Slowly. To think before i speak or act. It is the best thing anybody can do for themselves, i think!!! Or is it?

7) I twitter. A lot. It's fun. It's fun to try to write something, anything really in 140 characters or less. There are times when what i want to say is over 140 characters, i spend ridiculous amounts of time widdling down the sentence to under 140 characters but still have it make sense to someone reading it. I also facebook. This one intrigues me. People find you. People you never thought even think about you, find you. They find you and friend you. Then you leave comments on each others face book page. Things like "oh i haven't seen you in like forever, what have you been up to for the past 15 years??" Then you answer and ask the same ridiculous question right back to them. And so it goes!!

8) I love music so very much. I used to be limited in my musical tastes BIP (before iPod). But, now that i have the glories of the internet and itunes plus free MP3's from various sites i am enthralled at the amazing music that is out there. When i find a song i love, i will listen to it over and over again for days, weeks, even months. Literally. Then i memorize the lyrics and get to sing along. My iPod is always with me. Even on the toilet. Hey a woman needs her entertainment on the toilet doesn't she?? I have close to 6000 songs on my iPod plus videos and 2 movies. I am a geek for sure. A dork perhaps?? And definitely a nerd for i like gadgets and fun techy stuff. I would rather attend a tech gadget show than a make up, clothes thing. Yep!!!

9) I cannot sew or do anything crafty. I cannot even draw a stick figure to make it look like anything anybody would recognize. This bothers me. I love to be creative and i love art, yet i suck at it. It's as though i am missing the artistic gene or something. Or is there even a gene for that kind of stuff???

10) I used to be a raw foodie. It was fun and interesting and i met some amazing folks yet i couldn't pull it off 100%. Food is such a big part of my being. I think about what i will eat for breakfast as i am eating dinner the night before. I like to plan my meals out in my head the day before so the next day there will be no thinking or deciding or contemplating what i will be eating. I do not eat the same things day in and day out, except for breakfast. That is always oatmeal. With toppings. I cannot get enough of it. I would eat it for breakfast, lunch and dinner but i need some protein i think!! Perhaps i obsess about food. Perhaps i obsess about everything????

I've decided to not actually give this award to specific bloggers because there are way to many amazing bloggers out there for me to choose just 7 bloggers. If i could, i would give this award to every single blogger on my blog roll. Well, i could couldn't I? So i am. Everybody on my blog roll or everybody who wants to do this, well get on with it please!!!

















Peace out homies!!!!

Dance Music...POST #200

The Mountain Goats - Dance Music

So, as i was meandering to the mailbox earlier today, i decided to check out the ultra modern cool high tech set up that Mr. Security guard had going on. Mr. Security guard was teetering on the edge of sleepiness. He was doing what i like to call the bob and sway only nobody was sitting next to him, like on the subway.

You know, when your sitting there reading or watching a movie on your iPod and a man (its always a heavy set man with armpit odor) starts to nod off. At first, its just his eyes flickering. You glance over and pray to the subway GOD that he stays put. Not happening.

Heavy set man starts to bob a bit. His head i mean. It starts to slip forward ever so slowly and then as if somebody pushes his head up, it boings right back up again. OK, you think this should work out and you continue watching your movie. Then you feel it. His body starts to do the side to side motion that is commonly called the sleep sway. Head bobbing, he starts swaying left and right. Left and right. Your on the right. Right into you, he goes making you inadvertently lose your place in the movie you are watching and at that point you really don't care. You just want to get away from heavy set armpit smelly man as fast as possible.

So, you do.

So, Mr. Security guard was not aware that i was schooching (is that a word?) over his shoulder watching with wonder and glee all the many video screens set up there for him to watch. It was quite a show. I saw an elderly woman in a pink bathrobe checking her mail. I saw a young teenager fiddling with his keys on floor 8, then entering his apartment. I also saw a young maintenance man in the elevator with what appeared to be an iPod. He was grooving to some sort of beat. All alone like no one was watching. But, indeed we were. Or i was anyway.

That got me to thinking. Just yesterday i was in the elevator with my iPod classic blasting a Madonna song called Hung up. Here it is for those of you not in the know....



And not only was i singing the damn song, i was dancing to it. In the elevator. Alone. Or so i thought.

Mr. Security Guard snapped to attention and made it quite clear that at the exact moment i was both singing and dancing in the elevator ALONE he was not only awake and watching, but so was the entire maintenance crew.

Thought for the day :
Work like you don't need money,
Love like you've never been hurt,
And dance like no one's watching.

Let's Hug It Out Bitch....

Ari: You wanna hug it out? Let's hug it out bitch.

Hugging it out. Not a bad way to end the day or even to start the day. I love hugging. I find it very comforting and special. I am not quite sure of the reason to actually put your arms around another human being as they put their arms around you and you both squeeze each other for a small amount of time until one of you sort of slowly lets go. Also, i've been hugged where both of us sort of sway back and forth while grasping each other. Is this normal???

The hug is one of the most common human signs of love and affection. What is cool about hugging is that it can be performed in public and not looked at as some PDA. Two woman can hug as two men can hug. BUT, and here is a big but men hugging takes on a whole new dimension. I just recently saw this:



The pound hug: (from widipedia)
A stylized greeting, exclusively performed between two males, the pound hug (also referred to as a "pound shake," "man hug," "dude hug," "shug," "hetero hug,"or a "hip-hop hug") consists of a combination of a handshake and one-armed hug. Unlike the traditional hug, which symbolically and effectively removes interpersonal barriers and unites the two persons embracing, the male hug – performed by keeping the right hand locked in handshake while the left arm wraps around the other's shoulder – interposes the obstacle of the two right arms to the joining of the two bodies. While a common variant of this hug does not include the handshake but rather uses both arms to embrace , it still retains the essential ingredient of the double slap on the back, a symbol of masculinity that underlies the true meaning behind the hug as an admittance of affection while still maintaining distance so as not to appear "un-manly"

Now i don't know about you, but i appreciate seeing two men hugging it out. For real. Not this pound hug shit. European men not only hug each other, but kiss each other hello as well. I like that. I think its cool to see two men being open and honest and affectionate with one another in a friendly way. I would though perhaps give a second look if the huggers started the sway i was talking about earlier. That would mean that the hug is going on just a tad longer than it probably should, which would probably mean that they perhaps were enjoying this hugging it out bitch stuff. Ya know? Not that there's anything wrong with that!!!

Then there's the dreaded air kiss. What's up with that?? I've practiced air kissing many times. The air kiss is a pretence of kissing: the lips are pursed as if kissing, but without actually touching the other person's body. Sometimes the air kiss includes touching cheek-to-cheek. Also, the gesture may be accompanied by the "mwah" sound. MWAH!!!!  You freaking purse your lips as if to kiss, yet you don't. Why? I don't get it. Why bother then?

Instead i would go with the hug. Much more intimate and it feels good. Air kissing is a waste of precious, well air.

I've been hugged when i really need to be and i must say it was a comfort and joy. Plus the sway was involved and that made the hug last even longer. I felt embraced in the love that was pulsing out of the hug. Ok, that sounds ridiculous but gosh darn it i felt it dude!!

I am not even sure why i am so enthralled with this hugging phenomenon. I mean its not a new thing or an extraordinary thing either. Its just something that can be done in public, an acceptable form of affection or support and i like it damn it.

Not to worry. When we all meet i won't expect a hug from each and every one of you. Unless of course we all break out in spontaneous air kissing which at that point i will have to break all that up and do this:





















Raw cool will be giving out these:

















I am fully and well aware at how incredibly, insanely corny this post is, but like whatever. Deal with it OK? Hey, its not everyday you are offered something nice for FREE!! So, go with it and just hug it out bitches!!!!

It's Liz Lemon
Frank: Hey, what’s wrong with you?
Liz: What?
Frank: Your face. It’s like you’re happy or something.

Thats Two Angries Right??? Post 198

Today, and every Sunday i want to try a new thing. Well not so new but new to me. I want to feature a word of the day. Cool right? Say yes please!! So, without further ado, oh i really wanted to say without further adieu but i googled it and that really means without further goodbye as opposed to without further ado which means without further fuss....see the difference? I do sometimes like to use mixed metaphors and horrid euphemisms but right now i shall stick to without further ado OK?

Callipygian: having finely developed or beautifully shaped buttocks.
Is that not a beauty of a word?? My goodness folks, can you just imagine where and when you can interject that word into your conversation. Think about it!

Now back to my regularly scheduled post:

Today i found out something very interesting. I was told that when you are angry, all you need to do to rid yourself of the anger is to SMILE!! Seriously, you smile and viola or waa laa your no longer angry!!! Does this work for me? I have no idea but i sure will give it a shot next time i am feeling angry.

What do we know about feelings anyway?? Anything? Do we even care? Well, unfortunately i do care about feelings. My own and of course how others feel. Well, i don't mean like when i touch you and see the way your thing feels? Well, i do mean that but that's a whole other post.

Emotions, feelings, thoughts...WTF?? This is so much to think about. These feelings and stuff. Perhaps, it is better to go through life feeling nothing and thinking about ZILCH!!?? Plus, there are numerous ways to feel. Gut feelings, seeing red, many emotions probably too many to mention here but check this out:
How many of you have ever felt annoyance, depression, elation, ecstasy, love, embarrassment, fear, jealousy, loathing, worry, rage, regret??? NOT all at the same time, but you've all felt these emotions and many more. I am sure of this and will even go as far to say that I raw cool have felt all of these at one time or another.

My thing right now is to be open and honest and let somebody know how i am feeing. Only, of course of the other person perhaps was the causer of the emotion. If not, well then i smile and walk away. Slowly. Real slow.

I've always been fascinated by the way humans interact with each other. Just the other day i read a good article about alone time and then how humans are inherently social creatures. I got like all confused for a moment.

Here is some of that article:
Yet, too much isolation, especially when our intention is to hide, withdraw, or not deal with the realities of our lives is not physically, mentally, or spiritually healthy. It is during moments like these when being in isolation takes us away from our lives, rather than enhancing it. If anything, too much isolation can create a buffer whereby we don’t have to deal with our problems. Sometimes, pushing ourselves to deal with our issues and be in our lives, rather than isolate, is one of the best gifts we can give to ourselves.


True? To a certain extent it can be, i suppose. I have many friends who are admittedly loners. And thats fine. I am too. But, i do enjoy running with others. My feelings can be splashed all around on the boardwalk and i love it. One of my most favorite sayings is "I am alone, but not lonely". I just like that alot. And if you can achieve that feeling or thought, WOOHOO!!!

So, where am i going with this post?? Apparently nowhere fast!! Its starting to stress me out. The fact that i don't know how to end this post on a positive high note. Or any note at all.

Wait, i know:


















Here i am on my trip to Paris. See how clever i am? I thought to myself to measure the Eiffel Tower using nothing more than my fingers!!! No tape measure or ruler was needed. Sometimes, i amaze myself. The people around me were dumbfounded at how bright i was that day. Not one of them thought to measure the Eiffel Tower the way i did. Not even a single Parisian person. I do remember vaguely, being hit over the head with a very fresh, very hot baguette that very morning and i got a little dizzy from that, otherwise it was quite a delightful day!!!

A little nonsense now and then, is cherished by the wisest men.
~ Willy Wonka!

Angels On The Moon....

Thriving Ivory - Angels on the Moon
They are pretty cool, i guess check them out here myspace. If you have itunes this is the free video of the week. Download it, put it on your ipod and listen to it as your walking around town.


Do you dream, that the world will know your name
So tell me your name
Do you care, about all the little things or anything at all?
I wanna feel, all the chemicals inside I wanna feel
I wanna sunburn, just to know that I'm alive
To know I'm alive

Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon


I am pretty sure that the rest of 2009 has to be better than the beginning and that is all i want to say about that.

I am officially signed up for the Manhattan Half Marathon on January 25th. I am not, i repeat not running it for time. I am running it for the fun of it and i am running it to fulfill my goals of running all five half marathons in 2009 in the five boroughs of NY! Actually this is the info right NYRRC Grandprix I will make it happen. Unless i am injured and laying in a body cast somewhere. Then, i do not think i will make it happen. Sorry.

I wonder, would any of you think it would be cool to be deaf??? Check this out:
Once Upon A Time...
Once upon a time there was a bunch
of tiny frogs.... who arranged a
running competition.
The goal was to reach the top of a
very high tower.

A big crowd had gathered around
the tower to see the race and cheer
on the contestants....
The race began....

Honestly:
No one in the crowd really believed
that the tiny frogs would reach the
top of the tower.
You heard statements such as:

"Oh, WAY too difficult!!"
"They will NEVER make it to the top."

or:
"Not a chance that they will succeed.
The tower is too high!"


The tiny frogs began collapsing. One
by one....

Except for those, who in a fresh
tempo, were climbing higher and
higher..

The crowd continued to yell, "It is
too difficult!!! No one will make it!"



More tiny frogs got tired and gave
up....

But ONE continued higher and higher
and higher....

This one wouldn't give up!

At the end everyone else had given
up climbing the tower. Except for
the one tiny frog who, after a big
effort, was the only one who
reached the top!


THEN all of the other tiny frogs
naturally wanted to know how this
one frog managed to do it?
A contestant asked the tiny frog
how he had found the strength to
succeed and reach the goal?

It turned out....
That the winner was DEAF!!!!

The wisdom of this story is:
Never listen to other people's
tendencies to be

negative or pessimistic....because
they take your most wonderful
dreams and wishes away from
you -- the ones you have in your
heart!

This story got me thinking. Yeah, you think a joke is coming about the fact that raw cool does indeed think. Sure, there is. Because i very rarely do think. Anyway, imagine if you will Michelle starting the Half Marathon and all around her, instead of hearing things like GO, GO, GO, You can do it girlie, she hears "way to difficult, not a chance in she will finish", she won't make it....if that was ALL Michelle heard for 13.1 miles, perhaps Michelle would quit or worse, never even get to the starting line.

But, again i ask you to imagine, MIchelle starting the Half Marathon and she heard absolutely nothing. Not a sound. Not a peep. Not a bird chirping. Fucking nothing. Dead silence. In Michelle's mind she hears things though. She hears GO, GO, GO!!! And Michelle finishes the Half Marathon easily and happily and returns to the land of the hearing.

If we could weed out stuff that is totally negative and only hear the positive good stuff, what a wonderful world this would be!

The Bible tells us in Proverbs 18.21 that “the tongue has the power of life and death” and in Proverbs 12.18 that “reckless words pierce like a sword”. I wonder how many times – even in recent weeks – words of yours or mine have sliced right through someone. We’ve probably forgotten what we said or how we said it – they may never forget it. This is as far as i will go with biblical ranting. I just think that those two proverbs are important to think about. Fuck, now i'm asking you all to think!!! So sorry!

Everything and nothing is OK! It just is. I am not feeling broken or pissed off or anything really. It would just be a whole heck of a lot better if i was deaf to the words. Deaf to the hurt. Just deaf. Unless, of course i am at a really cool concert where i WANT to hear!

























I don't care what is written about me as long as it isn't true.
Katherine Hepburn