Thats Two Angries Right??? Post 198

Today, and every Sunday i want to try a new thing. Well not so new but new to me. I want to feature a word of the day. Cool right? Say yes please!! So, without further ado, oh i really wanted to say without further adieu but i googled it and that really means without further goodbye as opposed to without further ado which means without further fuss....see the difference? I do sometimes like to use mixed metaphors and horrid euphemisms but right now i shall stick to without further ado OK?

Callipygian: having finely developed or beautifully shaped buttocks.
Is that not a beauty of a word?? My goodness folks, can you just imagine where and when you can interject that word into your conversation. Think about it!

Now back to my regularly scheduled post:

Today i found out something very interesting. I was told that when you are angry, all you need to do to rid yourself of the anger is to SMILE!! Seriously, you smile and viola or waa laa your no longer angry!!! Does this work for me? I have no idea but i sure will give it a shot next time i am feeling angry.

What do we know about feelings anyway?? Anything? Do we even care? Well, unfortunately i do care about feelings. My own and of course how others feel. Well, i don't mean like when i touch you and see the way your thing feels? Well, i do mean that but that's a whole other post.

Emotions, feelings, thoughts...WTF?? This is so much to think about. These feelings and stuff. Perhaps, it is better to go through life feeling nothing and thinking about ZILCH!!?? Plus, there are numerous ways to feel. Gut feelings, seeing red, many emotions probably too many to mention here but check this out:
How many of you have ever felt annoyance, depression, elation, ecstasy, love, embarrassment, fear, jealousy, loathing, worry, rage, regret??? NOT all at the same time, but you've all felt these emotions and many more. I am sure of this and will even go as far to say that I raw cool have felt all of these at one time or another.

My thing right now is to be open and honest and let somebody know how i am feeing. Only, of course of the other person perhaps was the causer of the emotion. If not, well then i smile and walk away. Slowly. Real slow.

I've always been fascinated by the way humans interact with each other. Just the other day i read a good article about alone time and then how humans are inherently social creatures. I got like all confused for a moment.

Here is some of that article:
Yet, too much isolation, especially when our intention is to hide, withdraw, or not deal with the realities of our lives is not physically, mentally, or spiritually healthy. It is during moments like these when being in isolation takes us away from our lives, rather than enhancing it. If anything, too much isolation can create a buffer whereby we don’t have to deal with our problems. Sometimes, pushing ourselves to deal with our issues and be in our lives, rather than isolate, is one of the best gifts we can give to ourselves.


True? To a certain extent it can be, i suppose. I have many friends who are admittedly loners. And thats fine. I am too. But, i do enjoy running with others. My feelings can be splashed all around on the boardwalk and i love it. One of my most favorite sayings is "I am alone, but not lonely". I just like that alot. And if you can achieve that feeling or thought, WOOHOO!!!

So, where am i going with this post?? Apparently nowhere fast!! Its starting to stress me out. The fact that i don't know how to end this post on a positive high note. Or any note at all.

Wait, i know:


















Here i am on my trip to Paris. See how clever i am? I thought to myself to measure the Eiffel Tower using nothing more than my fingers!!! No tape measure or ruler was needed. Sometimes, i amaze myself. The people around me were dumbfounded at how bright i was that day. Not one of them thought to measure the Eiffel Tower the way i did. Not even a single Parisian person. I do remember vaguely, being hit over the head with a very fresh, very hot baguette that very morning and i got a little dizzy from that, otherwise it was quite a delightful day!!!

A little nonsense now and then, is cherished by the wisest men.
~ Willy Wonka!

Angels On The Moon....

Thriving Ivory - Angels on the Moon
They are pretty cool, i guess check them out here myspace. If you have itunes this is the free video of the week. Download it, put it on your ipod and listen to it as your walking around town.


Do you dream, that the world will know your name
So tell me your name
Do you care, about all the little things or anything at all?
I wanna feel, all the chemicals inside I wanna feel
I wanna sunburn, just to know that I'm alive
To know I'm alive

Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon


I am pretty sure that the rest of 2009 has to be better than the beginning and that is all i want to say about that.

I am officially signed up for the Manhattan Half Marathon on January 25th. I am not, i repeat not running it for time. I am running it for the fun of it and i am running it to fulfill my goals of running all five half marathons in 2009 in the five boroughs of NY! Actually this is the info right NYRRC Grandprix I will make it happen. Unless i am injured and laying in a body cast somewhere. Then, i do not think i will make it happen. Sorry.

I wonder, would any of you think it would be cool to be deaf??? Check this out:
Once Upon A Time...
Once upon a time there was a bunch
of tiny frogs.... who arranged a
running competition.
The goal was to reach the top of a
very high tower.

A big crowd had gathered around
the tower to see the race and cheer
on the contestants....
The race began....

Honestly:
No one in the crowd really believed
that the tiny frogs would reach the
top of the tower.
You heard statements such as:

"Oh, WAY too difficult!!"
"They will NEVER make it to the top."

or:
"Not a chance that they will succeed.
The tower is too high!"


The tiny frogs began collapsing. One
by one....

Except for those, who in a fresh
tempo, were climbing higher and
higher..

The crowd continued to yell, "It is
too difficult!!! No one will make it!"



More tiny frogs got tired and gave
up....

But ONE continued higher and higher
and higher....

This one wouldn't give up!

At the end everyone else had given
up climbing the tower. Except for
the one tiny frog who, after a big
effort, was the only one who
reached the top!


THEN all of the other tiny frogs
naturally wanted to know how this
one frog managed to do it?
A contestant asked the tiny frog
how he had found the strength to
succeed and reach the goal?

It turned out....
That the winner was DEAF!!!!

The wisdom of this story is:
Never listen to other people's
tendencies to be

negative or pessimistic....because
they take your most wonderful
dreams and wishes away from
you -- the ones you have in your
heart!

This story got me thinking. Yeah, you think a joke is coming about the fact that raw cool does indeed think. Sure, there is. Because i very rarely do think. Anyway, imagine if you will Michelle starting the Half Marathon and all around her, instead of hearing things like GO, GO, GO, You can do it girlie, she hears "way to difficult, not a chance in she will finish", she won't make it....if that was ALL Michelle heard for 13.1 miles, perhaps Michelle would quit or worse, never even get to the starting line.

But, again i ask you to imagine, MIchelle starting the Half Marathon and she heard absolutely nothing. Not a sound. Not a peep. Not a bird chirping. Fucking nothing. Dead silence. In Michelle's mind she hears things though. She hears GO, GO, GO!!! And Michelle finishes the Half Marathon easily and happily and returns to the land of the hearing.

If we could weed out stuff that is totally negative and only hear the positive good stuff, what a wonderful world this would be!

The Bible tells us in Proverbs 18.21 that “the tongue has the power of life and death” and in Proverbs 12.18 that “reckless words pierce like a sword”. I wonder how many times – even in recent weeks – words of yours or mine have sliced right through someone. We’ve probably forgotten what we said or how we said it – they may never forget it. This is as far as i will go with biblical ranting. I just think that those two proverbs are important to think about. Fuck, now i'm asking you all to think!!! So sorry!

Everything and nothing is OK! It just is. I am not feeling broken or pissed off or anything really. It would just be a whole heck of a lot better if i was deaf to the words. Deaf to the hurt. Just deaf. Unless, of course i am at a really cool concert where i WANT to hear!

























I don't care what is written about me as long as it isn't true.
Katherine Hepburn

In The New Year.....

The Walkmen - In The New Year
Oh, I’m still living
At the old address
And I’m waiting on the weather
That I know will pass

I know that it’s true
It’s gonna be a good year
Out of the darkness
And into the fire
I tell you I love you
And my heart’s in the strangest place
That’s how it started
And that’s how it ends

Well I know you’re with me
It’s a point of pride
And it’s louder than lightning
In this room of mine

Oh, I’m just like you
I never hear the bad news
And I never will
We won by a landslide
Our troubles are over
My sisters are married to all of my friends
Yeah, that’s how it started

You took your sweet time
And I waited by without complaint
Til all the pipe dreams made me insane

So it’s all over
It’s all over anyhow
You took your sweet time
Finally, I opened my eyes

My friends and my family
They are asking of me:
“How long will you ramble?
"How long did you say it would be?"
Snow is still falling
I’m almost home
I’ll see you in the new year

This is my 196th post of 2008. I had hoped to hit 200 but i am cool with where i ended up. I have so many thoughts in my head its almost too much to comprehend. I don't think i can really put into words how i am feeling at this moment.

Resolutions? Nah. Not this time. Not this year. I know what i must do but if i shout it out loud it will be heard by too many people who will then come to me on December 31st 2009 to ask me what i accomplished? And if i didn't do everything i said i would do, well you know!!!

I will tell you this though, not a day will go by where i won't be thankful for what i have. Not one fucking day. I am not rich nor will i ever be, but i have a home and warmth and food and family and friends and most importantly i have love.

I am done. Mushy was never my strong suit. It just doesn't work for me.

I told Liz Lemon today that she needs to accept certain things about me and she told me i need to be realistic. I know exactly what she meant and i will live up to that advice. There are no failures in life. You just strive to be the best you can be and move on.

So, tonight as i drink a toast to 2009 at 7PM and then go to sleep at 10pm i will think of all of you and smile. Do not worry folks, i will not picture any of you naked or doing any crazy ass stuff. I will picture you just as you are. Beautiful and special and oh so funny!!

Girlie crush i sure hope you find what you are looking for in 2009. I have asked that you date me, but since that won't be happening i want you to date someone so special that he knocks your socks off. Or stockings or whatever your wearing that particular evening.

Sista, you work hard and you always deserve to play hard too. Our challenge starting tomorrow is going to rock. I am sure it will be full of crazy antics and perhaps some cheating but honesty is the best policy!!! Good luck sista S!!

My runner friends remember i have a running blog over at runningdowndreams. Stay here, go there totally your call. But, there you can keep abreast of my running escapades. Here, anything goes! Also, i always wanted to use the word abreast!! It makes me giggle!


Also, i'd like to thank the academy for giving me this wonderful award because i am so deserving of it. I really am so its not surprising that i did indeed win!!!



























"The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up
with the rain."

FUCK YEAH!! Have a fabulous New Year. Keep it real and you know my other mantra:
Stay calm and carry on!!!!

The words on the 2nd cartoon says:
I'd like to say a few words, its been real, but i can't say i'm not glad this party is almost over! Here, here!

In Our World Of Plenty.....

First i just want to thank you all for your support and offers of contact and coming together. You all rock so much!!!

I feel 50 lbs lighter this morning. I took the advice of the people who care about me and i did what i had to do. Now, i move on never to revisit the part of my life that i just let go. 2009 is my year. It is our year. It is the year of change. Everything will fall into place. I am finally doing what is good for me not what is good for others. Not what i think others need, what i need.

I will never change who i am. I am giving, kind, compassionate, considerate and loving. I am smart and special. I never take. I give. And i give because i want to. I give because this is who i am. This is how i was raised. That part of me will never change. But what will change is how i react to situations and i will speak my mind if my feelings are hurt. I will not take crap from anybody. I will live the best way i know how. I will take care of my family and those around me who give a shit.

This past year i've met amazing bloggers who have rapidly become my friends. Each and everyone of you are special and caring. You reach out and give. You make me laugh. Thats fucking special right there folks.

THe 50 lbs i just lost will never be gained. That is how i want it. I stand by my decisions and i am proud. Do i cease to care? Of course not! I just can't be involved is all.

So, to each and every single person out there who is some small way reached out to me and made me giggle:
I love you all and i wish you a very Merry Christmas!!!! Keep in real in 09!!!

I Think I Need A New Heart...

And A New Soul.....



Magnetic Fields - I think I Need A New Heart
Hey check the out here myspace Also, i couldn't find a video of the band doing the song but i like it so bear with that lip syncing maniac up there!!!








It never fails. I am always the one left scratching my head in confusion! Confusing, upsetting situations always seem to find me. And i never know what to do. Sure, the four people who care about me suggest, NO scream at me what the right thing to do is!!!! And I know that those four people are right!!

Do i listen?? Do i think it through and realize that four people think the exact same way, yet somehow i make excuses as to why i end up doing the exact opposite?  They don't understand, those four people. My excuses are just that. Not based on any form of smart reality.

And you know what happens?? I think you do. Raw cool is always the sucker and always the one to get hurt. It never fails. At least i am consistent huh? Whats that saying??

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results. I am slowly learning it doesn't happen that way, EVER!!!

Well, maybe except when you run. You can run the same route over and over again and one day you are going to do it faster. HAHA!! I just proved that theory wrong!! I ROCK!!! I am so fucking cool. HAHAHA!!

Well, IRL it just doesn't happen that way. I was warned, yelled at, looked at in confusion just today actually and still........

I am not prepared to tell the story. I just can't. Just know this...I do not know why i do what i do!

Liz Lemon here i come!! She is one of the four by the way. What would Liz Lemon do? She won't tell me. Actually, no i am wrong. Most of the time she won't tell me. In this exact instance she tells me every time i see her. It's not like her to actually tell me what to do. She never does. She wants me to learn how to decide for myself what is right for me. Except in this situation. She is pretty vehement about it too. There is no other choice she says.  Oh for those who do not know, Liz Lemon is my therapist.

Yet, here i be. Confused and stupid. Confused and a moron. Confused and hurt. Confused.

I was doing really good for a while. You know, i came to terms with things and forgot. And didn't think about it either. Damn my mind. I hate thinking. Perhaps i should pop a valium and knock myself out??? Then not only wouldn't i think, i would be unconscious!!!

I don't even know, if what i am writing makes any sense. I am just venting i suppose. I don't feel like being funny or silly. Not today.

Here is what i do not understand. Why would a person intentionally stay in a situation that is not only harmful to that person but harmful to another person. Not physically harmful, just emotional shit. Just does not make one iota of sense to me. It goes back to that insanity saying up above you know?  

If you’re practicing something and improving as you go, you are technically NOT doing the same thing over and over again. You’re doing it slightly different and better each time. If you do it exactly the same each time - that’s not practicing, that IS insanity.

If you’re conducting an experiment, then several tries to determine a result’s probability counts as “doing ONE thing”. Repeating the experiment after a failed result without changing anything would be the “insanity!! So, who is insane now???  Not me, believe me!!!

Nah i am so not insane its insane!!!







So do you want to hear what i did today that IS INSANE??? I decided to make a hot cocoa. Vanilla soy milk, agave, raw cacao and lots of cinnamon in a pot, boiled. Easy! I was all into it and excited and i poured it into my favorite orange mug. I lifted that sucker to my lips and took a taste. That fucking thing was still boiling in the cup and it slid down my tongue into my throat down my esophagus and burnt the crap out of me. I almost died a little. So, i consulted a doctor, yep i did. She told me to suck on ice!! Yep, she did. SO i sucked that ice like there was no tomorrow. Then i drank my hot cocoa. It was yummy even though my esophagus hurt likea motha fucka!!! !!! 

Lesson learned: Wait until your hot cocoa stops boiling before attempting to drink it!!!

Also, i had no idea how to spell esophagus, had to google it. But i couldn't spell it so i spelled it wrong and google helped me out!!! Thanks google!!!

I may buy a shotgun!!! I heard from a reliable source that girls are good at shooting those things!!!!

I am totally going to steal this quote from this pretty lady nikemom. She rocks and thank you!!!

Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you!
~ Christian D. Larson

P.S. So sorry my interviewees i haven't sent you your questions yet!!!
I suck!!!

"I Have Shpilkes In My Genecktigazoink."

Erran Baron Cohen - The Dreidel Song

It's Hanukkah tomorrow night!!! Time for some dreidel playing and potato pancake eating!!! Oh yeah baby!!





















I am a bit verklempt and for those of you who do not know what that means, i am basically choked with emotions!!! Here's why:
My family has gotten together for every single first night of Hanukkah for as long as i can remember. We always make potato pancakes complete with apple sauce and sour cream. Then we eat, hang out, exchange gifts and just have fun.

So, its snowing. Yeah so, you may ask. My mom has forbidden my sister to come to our home. She literally yelled at her and saId DO NOT COME HERE!!! We do not want you here!!! (notice how she used the word we) Hmmm, well cause the weather is bad and slippery and icy and stuff. So, my sister is not coming. This is why i feel verklempt. Just kinda sad.

So, not to weigh down this post i just wanted to wish everybody a happy first night of the festival of lights.

I'd like to include some of my favorite yiddish words and their meaning....you know just for fun!!! K?

1) Alta Kocker: literally, an old shit; or as we say in English, an old fart. (sometimes called, simply, AK)
2) Baleboosteh: (bal-a-boo-stah) an organized, efficient, praise-worthy homemaker. Also the boss-lady or boss's wife; a bossy woman.
3) Bissel: (bis-sel) A little. "Give me a bissel lox on my bagel, would you, darling?" A biselleh is even less.
4) Bubbellah: (the "u" is pronounced like the "oo" in book) an affectionate way of refering to someone, much like "darling" or "sweetheart." Bubbies call their grandchildren "bubbellah." Close friends and long-time business partners might call each other "bubbellah," or boubbie, for short.
5) Bupkis: (bup-kiss) literally, beans. Colloquially, nothing. "You're gonna sue me?! You know what you'll get!!?? Bupkis!"
6) Chazzer: (khaz-zeh) a pig or anyone who behaves like one, either in their eating, financial or personal grooming habits.
7) Draycup: literally, a turned around head. ("dray" means "turn" as in "draydl," a spinning top used at Hanukkah) Someone who's perpetually confused.
8) Fardrai zich deyn kopf!: literally, "go turn your own head around." In other words, "Leave me alone and go make yourself crazy!"
9) Gay kocken offen yom: literally, go shit in the ocean. Get lost; hit the road; beat it; piss off.
10) Shmeckel: a little penis, as on a young boy. (In baby talk, often "mekki.")
11) Shpilkes: (shpill-kiss) literally, pins. Ants in the pants, pins and needles, impatience. That feeling you have when you can't sit still from anticipation and/or anxiety. As Mike Myer's Linda Richman character would say, when she gets all worked up, "I have shpilkes in my genecktigazoink."


So, i want to just say sholem-bayes to you all!!! Oh and ikh hob dikh lib!!!!

Some funnies:

“Why do Jewish men die before their wives? They want to.”
Henny Youngman

“I'm Jewish. I don't work out. If God had wanted us to bend over, He would have put diamonds on the floor.”
Joan Rivers

What If Christmas, Perhaps, Means A Little Bit More?

The Ravonettes - Come on Santa

I wonder. Is your man in the doghouse this Christmas?? It's not a very nice place, the dog house. Folding laundry all day long and having to endure eating quiche and chai lattes every night??? No fucking way man!!

Men do you hear us??? Do not, i repeat do not give your woman a vacuum cleaner for Christmas!!! Dual bag, schmul bag!!! Woman want thoughtful pretty smelling things that can perhaps be worn around our necks. Or dangly things that hang from our ears. Or even things where another person is allowed to touch our body and massages us. You know, girlie things!! A nice dinner complete with flowing bottles of wine would be nice. Or a day at the spa while you do all the housework and that includes cleaning the bathroom toilets.

Men, can you handle that??? I wonder! Here is what will happen to you if you do not do as i say!!! Click here doghouse and take a gander. Don't worry men, this is just a lesson for you. You will not end up in the doghouse if you follow my rules above! K???

Now, here is what i think is an appropriate Christmas gift for you men!! Check it out, i think you will love it!!! I kinda love it too!!!

















This crapping robot toilet-paper holder manages to signal your literacy and deep commitment to bowel evacuation, all in one simple package. Yeah baby!!!

So, thats my story and i am totally sticking to it!!!

Snow is falling!!!

And the Grinch, with his Grinch-feet ice cold in the snow, stood puzzling and puzzling, how could it be so? It came without ribbons. It came without tags. It came without packages, boxes or bags. And he puzzled and puzzled 'till his puzzler was sore. Then the Grinch thought of something he hadn't before. What if Christmas, he thought, doesn't come from a store. What if Christmas, perhaps, means a little bit more.
Dr. Seuss